LOVE...

I broke up with my boyfriend 6 months ago and I'm just now sorta-kinda getting over it. I swear our break-up has been so mentally draining. I will be single for awhile. Which is sad to me because I love, love. There is nothing like having someone that you can feel, but not touch. There is nothing like having someone that nobody else has, the way you have. There is nothing like looking into someones eyes and wanting to stay there forever, frozen in time. So opposite, yet so much the same. But, sadly and gladly all things change. The only love that surpasses is a Mother's love. What a love. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. I am from which he came. 9 months he grew inside of me. A bond that cant be broken. So pure. So undeniable. A part of my heart will forever be on the outside. Amazing. My son. He knows I will protect him, yet he feels the need to protect me. It hurts me that he feels my pain. But he can't help it. When he feels it he tries his best to make it go away. A kiss. A hug. A joke, "Mama you farted" as he burst into laughter. A piece of tissue to wipe the tears away. The man that will forever be in my life. No words can express. I would give my life for his. He is my inspiration; he has no idea. The breaths he takes as he sleeps keeps me going. My Angel.

It's funny how loss can make you realize what you have. What you need. What's important. There is no joy without pain. I can't wait to see what the day brings. Eventually things will be just right. Go wrong. Then go right again. Life's flow; life's poetry. So Beautiful. So Tragic. We struggle and fight to live because of the glimpse of light we see through the storm. Deep down we know that this life may not be the best, but it is what we were giving. A gift.

It's funny how your heart can sporadically pour out it's emotions. Peace. Be blessed.